Disneyland, Here We Come

So, when we told the kids that baby Journee was not going to come live with us, Brian added, "She doesn't get to live with us, but she wants us to go to Disneyland". This is a HUGE thing for Brian. He hates Disneyland. Unfortunately, he only went once growing up... in the summer... on a VERY crowded day. We went once together, but he already was prejudiced against "The Happiest Place On Earth". I love Disneyland. I am hoping that this trip will bring about a fun experience for him and the kids. We are taking Brian's 13 year old sister, Brooklynn, with us. We will be dining with Arielle and her fellow princesses on Tuesday for lunch. There are parades and our hotel looks pretty sweet. I think it will be so much fun. We leave Monday night after Brian gets home from work. I guess we have to watch Disney movies the whole way there. What did we do before DVD players in our cars?? Talk??

Our New Ward Party

We had a party with our new ward tonight at the park. It was fun. I am excited to get to know new people. I love some of the houses in the new neighborhoods that are now in our ward boundaries. I am excited to go to testimony meeting tomorrow. I just love to feel the spirit and feel how much my Heavenly Father loves me:)

Field Day

Charlee had field day at school today. Jaxson and I went to watch and Jaxson joined in the parachute game. Charlee is just so beautiful!!

Charlee shared her snacks with Jax.

They threw water balloons between partners. Charlee and her partner won!! (she partnered with the teacher:))

They had to fill a sponge and run it across to another bucket.

Yummy Steak

So, when I married Brian, I only ate chicken. Slowly, he introduced me to the beauty of red meat. I am still not a fan of ground beef, but I like to eat steak- well done. For Brian's birthday, we went to Ah- So. It is one of those Japanese places that cook on the table in front of you. I had shrimp (something else I would never have eaten before Brian) and fillet. YUMMY!! Since then, I have been craving it again. I had it Medium and it was so good. Today I went to Safeway and bought fillet and cooked it at home with a little olive oil, salt, pepper, and soy sauce. I love that it is already cut up so I don't have to see the blood. I can just eat the little pieces whole. I think I am a little anemic right now, because red meat is hitting the spot.

The Lord Works In Mysterious Ways

Our house has been up for sale since late February. At the beginning, we had lots of lookers, but no offers. Just before I went on bedrest, we lowered the price and had a few looks, but I went on bedrest and the calls stopped. Completely. The entire time I was in bed, not a single call. I had Journee on Thursday. Between Saturday and Tuesday, we had 12 lookers and 2 offers on our house. I think the Lord knew how hard it would be for Brian to take care of me and get the house ready for a showing. I am so glad we got an offer. I really think the Lord was helping us during my bedrest and now he has helped us to get an offer. Our ward split last week and we were put in the new ward. Our plan is to find a house in the new ward because I think this is where Heavenly Father wants us to be.

Journee's Burial

We buried Journee this morning right next to her sister, Trevee.

My brother, Greg made me and Journee both beautiful leis. My friend, Torrye made a beautiful flower arrangement for the top of her casket.
Charlee and Oaklee sang "I Am A Child of God". They did such a good job.

My mom's friend, Sue, made a beautiful little papoose dress for her to be buried in. I am so grateful that she gave us such a precious gift.

This is a picture of our family with the casket. Oaklee's head looks like it is popping out of the casket like a magic trick. A little spooky if you ask me:)

Our cute kids with their sister. Trevee is buried just to the left of the picture. The cemetery sells parent plots on the next row so people can be buried by their kids. Brian and I are going to be buried there. Brian's dad thinks he and Brenda will be buried there as well. It is a beautiful place where the bodies of my two sweet angels are buried. It was such a beautiful service. I am so thankful to all of my family and friends for their love and support. When we got home, my friends from the Relief Society brought in great food and we felt the love from them. Thank you to all of you. I love you and appreciate all of your help.

I feel bad for ditching church today. I went to take the sacrament and took Jax and Charlee home right after (they are both sick). I just wanted to go and take the sacrament because I am so grateful to my Heavenly Father and I needed to show him how much I appreciate all of the love and strength that he shows to me. I have been thinking about my testimony the last few days and I really want everyone to know how grateful I am for how things ended up with Journee and Trevee. Losing Journee makes me sad, but I am so honored to have been given the opportunity to give her sweet spirit a body. I saw her move in ultrasounds and felt her in my tummy. I know her spirit is with me as I grow from this experience. Last night, Brian and I went on a date and after, we had to run to the grocery store. When we were walking in, I felt truly happy for the first time in a long time. I have been living with a fear since Trevee was born. That fear is gone. I am grateful for the 3 beautiful kids I have here on this Earth and I know that they have 2 very special angels looking out for them.

Happy Birthday, Brian!!

My cute hubby is 32 today. We went to eat at Ah-So and ice cream with our friends. We had such a great time, so Happy Birthday, Brian!!

Journee LaBelle Barry

Sweet Baby Journee is here. Small but perfect!!

This is Journee with Brian's wedding ring up her arm.

A little update on our last crazy couple of days with our sweet Journee. Everything looked great in our ultrasound on Wednesday morning at the Perinatologist. She looked great in the ultrasound and my cervix was closed and 2.5 inches long. At about nine that night, I started bleeding and Brian took me to the hospital. They gave us less that a 1% chance that I could make it to 24 weeks (The earliest okay gestation). Brian and I did not want to make that choice. When I got up to the bathroom, my water broke and the decision was made for us. We are both so grateful that this happened. We had to wait until there was no heartbeat before we could induce labor. She had a heartbeat on Thursday morning, but about 3:00 she was gone. A couple of hours later, she was born on Thursday, April 23rd at 5:10 pm.. She was so beautiful and perfect. We got to hold her and dress her. She weighed 8 ounces and was 8.25 inches long. We are okay. The kids are handling it great. I am sure we will be sad for a little while, but we are looking at the silver lining. Journee is with her sister Trevee and her cousins Quinn and Baylee. Charlee, Oaklee and Jaxson have each other and Trevee and Journee have each other. Jaxson says that Journee lives with Jesus and I agree. He is such a smart boy!! Thank you to all of my friends and family who have been so involved and supportive in this pregnancy. We love you so much.

So, I think I figured it out... the unsure feeling... the doubt... the fear. I went into bed with Jax and Oaklee at 20 weeks and brought home 7 pound plus kids 16 weeks later, so why the fear in this pregnancy? I think it is because with them, the thought of failure never crossed my mind. I always knew that I would be able to do it. Trevee being born at 22 weeks was a fluke. It was not my fault, but it is so hard to remember it sometimes. I think discouragement, fear, and self doubt are Satan's tools to bring us down. I know that Journee is going to be okay. I have faith in blessings and the priesthood, but some days are harder to stay positive than others. 1 week down and I hope and pray for 18 more just like this:)

I have the BEST Husband!!

If you think I have it rough, just look at my great husband. He gets up and gets ready for work, gets Charlee dressed for school, makes me eggs, toast, and pancakes for breakfast. Then he takes Charlee to school and goes to work until 6. He comes home to find me still in bed in my jammies and makes the family dinner, does homework with the kids, cleans up dinner, puts the kids to bed, cleans the rest of the house and plops into bed next to me. He is a great man. I can't imagine going through a single day without him. I could not do this without his love and support. I just feel very lucky and blessed to have him today and every day:).

Our Day With Dad and Sparky

Brian spent the day with the kids and I sent my camera :) They went to ASU to watch a scrimage game.
They played on the field and showed off their guns.

Jax really needed a nap.

Oaklee posed with everyone. Here is Chris McGaha.

Jax and O with Big Sparky!!

Oaklee and some cheerleaders. Check out her go devils fingers!!

They ran all over the field.

Charlee

Oaklee

Oaklee and Sparky